So sometimes I forget - after all the bullshit, drama, and hard work - why I ever wanted to go into the profession that I have worked in for 6 and a half years. Last night at work I got a reminder.
I have two ladies that I take care of that I absolutely love to be around. No matter what kind of mood I am in they make me smile. These two women, I will admit, I treat a little differently than my other residents. I sing to them, dance for them (and, yes, I am a terrible dancer), tell them jokes, and sometimes - when I have the time - I snuggle up next to them like they are my own grandmother. Last night, after a long day and not a lot of sleep, I sat down next to one of them and chatted for a bit. After a few minutes I had to get up and leave and she looked at me and asked when I would be back, I told her I would come back and make sure she was sleeping and she said to me, "I just don't want you to ever leave me."
That is the reason I do the job I do. I live for those human interactions - however brief they may be. There is something to be said about being a person that someone relies upon and needs to have around but also wants to have around.
How cute! I have my moments when I wonder why I am in the field I'm in but I have moments like that too that remind me. I think the bottom line is that we are "helping" people and that is bound to have an impact on the people we help.
ReplyDeleteI have seen you brighten the day of more than a few patients over the years. I am sure that you are a comfort to them. I think that even with all the stress and everything else, you are good at what you do and you should be very proud of yourself.
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